I am slipping down
Further into that abyss again
The abyss of never feeling good
And always being self conscious
I am slipping down
Pushing back the people that love me
The people that accept my sins
And the ones that try to catch me before I fall
I don’t want to slip
To slip in and out of bad habits
Makes me drunk with fatigue
But you don’t know how easy it is to fall back into old routines
She wasn’t any different
His sins were burned on her youthful arms
She paid for mistakes that weren’t hers
She was a good girl with bad habits
He turned those habits into an addiction and caused her to smoke away her hazy blues
Drilling the idea that her broken heart can be fixed with a duct tape made of pills
Her heart was a lonely hunter that hunted on a lonely hill
The deer paraded onto that empty hill infecting false hopes and expectations
Forcing her to use her good aim blindly
She took him in and taught him to love
But not all students can surpass the master with flying colours
He was a wolf in sheep’s skin
Deceiving her like the cold blooded reptile in hell
She had closed her eyes to the throbbing pain inside her chest but she
Opened her once innocent eyes which are now heavy with bags full of ignored memories
She couldn’t withstand it all
She was slipping beneath
His act to have a stronger grip on her was tremendous
She believed he was trying his best, blinded by what she thought love was
But he eventually let go in the end, just like everyone else did
And her fragile body fell
Fell into the black ocean that housed her sorrowful memories
She felt at home in her miseries, letting herself submerge into their familiar feel
She was back into the darkness
Cascading ripples of heavy sanity filled her lungs until she could no longer breathe
She was slipping further into the darkness
But she had to remember that we are all swimmers momentarily sustained by what will engulf us at the last
Still dreaming of islands though the mainland has been lost
Swept remorselessly out to sea while we spread our arms to the beautiful shore
She had to merge through the black ink and get a grip on those big hands in the sky
Then she would receive her salvation